Today I’m surrounded by sadness. It’s a deep thought-out sadness that runs through every aspect of my life. From the worldwide scale all the way down to the family tragedies that are currently happening in my world, this sadness is hard to shake. Each of us goes through periods in our life where, “When it rains, it pours;” where we’re afraid if we hear one more ounce of bad news, we might break.
We should listen. Just listen.
So last August or so was somewhat of a wild ride. Our Anniversary On August 8th, we took a pregnancy test. We already suspected that I was pregnant but I wanted to see the positive test result on our 4 year wedding anniversary. To no surprise, it was positive! We went on our anniversary date…
On this journey of life we often go about our days and think little about how we spend our time, where we put our energies and if that energy is to serve the greater good or to serve our own lives and our own happiness.
At the end of the day, it’s about being lighter. This is hard work at the onset and you could have a tendency to feel discouraged if things don’t go as planned. It might end up being a lot more difficult that you had envisioned or much, much slower. The truth is, it can be hard, and it can be slow.
Just take one day at a time, one item or group of items at a time; one closet or project at a time, and go easy on yourself. And remember to not get lost in the “how”, and remember the “why”.
This has been such an enlightenment and such a wonderful journey I have stumbled upon. It happened by some beautiful accident and it seems I just looked up one day and realized I was here.
It was hard. But not as hard as I was expecting. I thought I would cry. I didn’t. I thought I was going to be sad. I’m not.
I ran yesterday, and I thought, “This is hard!” But then I remembered that I was a mother of a teething, breastfeeding-like-a-newborn, toddler and realized, “Wow! This run is a piece of cake!” I immediately ran faster.
Since it’s been so long since I’ve let you into my little world, a lot has changed (notice the name change!). It’s a lot, in fact too much, to put down in a story of past events, so I’ll not do that. What I thought I would do though, is let you in on a few little discoveries I’ve stumbled upon on my way here.